Friday, May 31, 2013

Friday Confessional

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It is Friday and I am going to confess. The party over at High-Heeled Love hosted by the wonderful Aubrey.

I confess...

It has been a different week for me. A little stressed from families health and getting a birthday party ready. I have given myself a kidney infection, the party is not as stressful as the others.

I confess...

I am looking forward to making the centerpieces tonight for the party.  Art is always therapy for me.

I confess...

I cried and cried after I got off the phone with my Dad the other night. I lied to him on the phone because I could not come out and say it. He has had several appointments this week. Liver specialist...things are maintaining, Chemo doctor...things are maintaining, and his regular doctor for a yearly physical. He told his regular doctor he was sorry he does not see her very often, only one time a year basically. She told him no, do not be sorry because he has enough wrong with him.  She also gave him a big hug before he left and the nurse cried as she hugged him too. He asked me why I thought they hugged him this time.  I did not have the heart to tell him because most likely you will not have another yearly physical. They were saying good-bye to you. I just told him I do not know.

I confess...

That hit me like a ton of bricks. I know he is not going to make it.  He has had this now for nearly 2 years. 6 months ago he was given 6 months. In February the tumor tripled in size. I guess it is hard because he says he is not in pain and he has his full quality of life still. (I am very thankful for this.) The doctor must have seen something we are not.

I confess...

Little Miranda came home from the hospital for one day Wednesday. It was her sister's birthday too. On Thursday, she had a different seizure and was rushed to the hospital once more. Her sugar levels were at 59. They were at 375 last Friday and kept her in the hospital for 5 days. I am not sure if she is diabetic now on top of all her other health issues as well. If she is I am not sure how they will manage this since she can not eat.  She gets her nutrition from liquid through the g-tube inserted near her stomach.

I confess...

I want to stay home today because I want to clean and craft. My kidney is hurting but I am going to work.  I do not want to miss when I have only been there nearly 60 days.

I confess...

I am sorry this post is gloomy......... oh and I need to leave early because several roads are closed due to flooding. The University and all the buildings and home which recovered the devastating floods in 2008 are now in jeopardy again.  I guess the 500 year floods really is not 500 years because this is will be the 3rd 500 year flood I have seen in 20 years.  The month of May we have had the most rain in 141 years.  I guess we are not definitely in a drought any more like we were suffering the past two summers.  Did I mention the birthday party is suppose to be in our back yard? Now you can see why I need some Art therapy.

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2 comments:

  1. Wishing you lots of good vibes and I hope you enjoy your art therapy today. I understand your sadness over your ailing father; my dad was quite sick for a few years, and it put a lot of strain on our family. Enjoy your time with him while he's still feeling good and not in pain. Hugs!!

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  2. I heard about all that flooding on the news. Maybe things will dry out soon! You have so much on your plate, yet at the same time, so much to be thankful for, and that's hard because you feel guilty (at least I do) when you're happy when others so close to you are suffering.

    But you will enjoy getting things ready for the party. It will be a nice treat for everyone!

    Take care, Sweetie!

    xo,
    RJ

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