It has been so long since I have posted a Monday Moan and with all the anger I have been experiencing I am going to post one today...
MOOOOOAAAAANNNN... Yes, I have a lot of anger issues right now. I think it is part of the ugly monster called grief. I am grieving so many things right now. The job, the company is not what they made out they were going to be. I enjoy my job but I am grieving for a company that did not exist and is why I could justify the huge pay cut a little more than a year ago.
MOOOOOAAAAANNNN... I finally have access to my Yahoo account I locked myself out of the day my Dad died. My Uncle Dennis sent me some pictures of my Dad less than 12 hours before he died. I was told he took one of my Dad and my Grandma, so I was hoping one of the four he sent was this one. MOOOOOAAAAANNNN None of them were. I am glad he sent me the picture of my Dad alone. The other three were not pictures but little mini video clips. I wish I never watched one in particular. MOOOOOAAAAANNNN My sister Katie was talking about how part of his face was swollen and my Dad was looking up at her. He was scared. I could see the terror in his eyes. MOOOOOAAAAANNNN This image keeps haunting me now. I am so angry for watching it. I am so angry my sister said that in front of him to scare him. I am so angry that I am angry at her for it. MOOOOOAAAAANNNN..
MOOOOOAAAAANNNN..The bills are starting to come in for Noah's hospitalization and it is hitting me that I am going to end up owing the University of Iowa Hospital $1200. His hospital bill alone is nearly $18,000 before the insurance pays anything. I am so angry because I know his father will not reimburse me any and if I were to make payments then I would end up paying more out of my pocket where his father would owe me less that is if I ever get the money from him. MOOOOOAAAAANNNN I am so angry he is not a good father to the boys. This money I was saving for Ethan's Spain trip and his Senior year. MOOOOOAAAAANNNN I am so angry about the bills. I am so angry that Noah actually tried to hang himself. I am so angry that he is still battling the restrictions the doctor's in the hospital put on him. ENOUGH WITH THE ANGER KID! START IMPLEMENTING THE PROGRAM TO BECOME HEALTHIER! MOOOOOAAAAANNNN I am angry with myself for being angry at him. I know depression can be an ugly beast of it's own. I just wished he would have seen how much he is loved and we are there for him. I wish he never acted on it.
Now it is time for more lighter moans...
When I see people like this I just want to MOOOOOAAAAANNNN out loud.
Really, do you think this is attractive? You look like you just forgot to finish getting dressed. I seriously want to go up and smack them in the head. I bet I could do it and then be able to run away without them catching me. Yes, this over weight, out of shape, getting close to 50 year old could out run them only because they probably would trip when they tried to run because of their pants hanging down. MOOOOOAAAAANNNN I am so grateful none of my kids are into this horrible fad. One of my nephews are and I am always telling him to pull them up. What is so funny, he does when I am around. Ha ha ha.
Oh, and this seriously angers me. MOOOOOAAAAANNNN
Sometime back, like January 8, 2014, I won this book in a give-away.
MOOOOOAAAAANNNN. I was looking forward to this book too and very excited. I rarely win things and I just so happened to win two blogger give away that week. MOOOOOAAAAANNNN The book has still yet to come. I have no plans on telling the person I have not received it yet. It is too bad too.
All pictures were found by doing Google Search