The problem I am seeing from my oldest child to my youngest child (only a nine and a half span) is the times have changed in just the gap from the time my first born was a teenager to now with my last child. Children now feel they do not have to listen to their parents. Okay, let me re-word this, SOME children think this. I think society has some input on this. Even now, you hear debates about how children should not be spanked or disciplined with punishment of such. This post is not about that but is some ways, these debates just encourage the children who have problems even more. The people debating all of this is not looking at the flip side...What happens to the parent when the child absolutely refuses to obey? They have no respect to boundaries. They feel they have no consequences for their actions because society tells them they have rights and should be able to express their views too. Now, by no means am I saying it should be the day when children should be seen and not heard. They do have valuable opinions and views but we are in a society where a parent is afraid to discipline due to fear of abuse charges. Seriously, there has to be a happy medium.
All said and done Noah and I was at the hospital until 2:45 am when he was released. They and he thought it was a heat of the moment situation. I do not know what to say or think of it all. We ended up buying a lock for our bedroom closet and lock everything dangerous in our closet and hide the key since there is only one key. Kera told us that Taj would not be able to be here when Noah is here. I was surprised, yet happy to hear what Todd told her only two hours after being bit my Noah. He told her this is Noah's home, he is going to be here. As I said before, I think something is wrong with Noah more than depression. His therapist is trying to work with the psychiatrist who we do not see until October 16th and assess him further. I believe my son is one step closer to being placed in residential. I just want him to be healthy again. This has to be more than depression! The biggest mistake of all of this was on Noah, he has to own his mistakes and follow the rules, he has to come to realization getting help is not when it is getting his way. Noah has hard feelings towards everyone. Two of my other children have hard feelings on him. My husband is at his wits end but also wants to support Noah. The girls are very concerned. Poor Taj is so confused. My family is broken and all I want to do is fix it. Noah has given some moments I see my old Noah, life is about holding onto your good memories and looking for one moment to give hope that any dream is possible. I cannot give up on him but I have to watch out and protect my other family members. I am going to hope my dream is possible we will be united as a family again.