Our house is going through a lot of changes right now, thus why I was away for a week. Christian (a.k.a. Noah) came home on August 8th. He was so happy to be home, he hugged Todd. I cannot ever remember him hugging Todd do not get me wrong they have had a good relationship but he has never hugged him. He told me how much he missed home. His spirits were up. He and Ethan got a long. I have been trying to get him back on a schedule.
Ethan last week was so frustrating, he was going to be physically moving out on Saturday August 15th and he had very little packed. He kept going out with friends and working. He would stay out late, sleep all day, when he was home and awake it seemed like all he did was play games then it happened. His bedroom was emptied. An empty bedroom. At one time I had this smiling boy, the next he was spreading his wings and moved across town to live with his brother. Now, there is only one home with us.
I did not like the empty room. It was too hard to see, so we started to fill the closets and added a bed for guest and Taj's toys. Our living room is now not a toy room as well. I have been working over time as well this month, so between it all I am tired.
Back to Noah...um I mean Christian. He made City Lights which is one of the swing choirs, it is mainly Freshman/Sophomore Swing Choir. It has been great, this has been an incentive for him to bring up his grades at the end of the year. He signed a contract and in this contract, he cannot miss a lot of school, he has to pass all of his classes, and he cannot drink/smoke/or do drugs. It has been great watching him so excited and seeing him caring about things again...
One thing I have learned with being his Mom and I know it is horrible to say, we (Todd and I) are always waiting for the other shoe to drop with him and it has. Tonight I came home and he was down. He is closing up and will not share what is going on. He told me he is going to drop out of show choir now. I just do not know what to say about this. I cannot keep going on with battling him to do the right things. I begged him not to do this, to sit on it for awhile and allow his emotions to connect again because I do not want him to be sorry later. I also told him the group depended on him.
I have no clue what to do, school starts on Monday and his spirits are not in a good place at all. This is so damn frustrating!