Friday, October 31, 2014

Friday Confessional

It is Friday and you all know what that means?  Yep, you guessed it, time to fess up.  Come join the fun over at Aubrey's High-Heeled Love.  She host this little party every Friday.  
I confess...

The beginning of the week started of great with Noah. Last weekend, Noah thanked me and told me he was sorry.  SORRY, I have never EVER heard Noah tell me he was sorry for doing something and I mean ever.  Oh, I have seen he was sorry by the way his face looked from time to time but for him to speak the words was a BIG deal.  He told me he was sorry for how he talked to me the night prior.  He told me he was sorry for his behavior and thanked me for not giving up on him and doing everything I can for him.  This conversation was out of the blue at dinner one night.  It came from no where.  I cannot express how deeply touched I am that he made this big step.

I confess...

HOWEVER with Noah each day brings a different challenge.  I got a text yesterday from my husband "Don't freak but Noah just got caught shoplifting at Hy-Vee."   UM Yes, I did freak out.  Sadly, his brother Ethan was just clocking in for work when he saw his brother in their office with the police. Todd just happened to be in the store so they paged him to come to the courtesy counter. Ethan was totally embarrassed because the officer mentioned something to him and the manager in front of his colleagues AND with the police involved, this means Todd's co-workers are also aware of what went down.  How embarrassing for him especially since December 1 he will be a supervisor there.  I feel badly for both as for Noah, I just do not have words for his actions any more.  I told him his birthday money and Christmas money will be held for all of the fees associated with this and now he will have to mark "yes" to criminal charges on applications until he is 18 when applying for jobs.

I confess...

I am so worn out by this kid.  I have never wanted to give up so badly in my entire life but know I cannot give up.  I have no choice until he is 18.  He will be 15 November 13th.  I will always love him but he just does not even try any more. I pray the mental testing in December to determine what is actually wrong with him truly helps because I am at a loss. I would love to say..."Here Dad, you take him."  because his Dad keeps thinking he can straighten him out but I cannot do that when he was abusive with Matthew and has child abuse charges on him due to that.  This is so hard trying to think of everyone safety.

I confess...

Todd and I both work until 7 pm tonight and we will basically miss Trick or Treat night by the time we came home. We decorated less this year because of not being home. Noah will be handing out candy.  I hope he behaves right. 

I confess...

I had to end with a positive.  This morning Ethan just made my morning.  He and his girlfriend have been working on a costume.  She sewed his pants and made his wig.  He looks so adorable. I cannot wait to see them together.  Ethan is Raggedy Andy.  Noah looked cute too but he is not as dressed up, his was simple he is a black cat. I will post their pictures tomorrow along with our very slimmed down decorations this year.

What do you have to confess this week?


1 comment:

  1. So sorry you're having such a time with Noah. Prayers for you. The boys look great in their costumes!


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